the johnson jig: this slope is treacherous, and I like it.

Put your lips close to mine,

As long as they don't touch.

Out of focus, eye to eye,

'Til the gravity's too much.

And I'll do anything you say,

If you say it with your hands.

And I'd be smart to walk away,

But you're quick sand.

I have been so busy I have neglected writing. It is a hard task to sit down and write something somewhat interesting when you are DEAD tired. My last couple of posts have been written while I was in the process of passing out. They somehow turned out okay? Nothing embarrassing at least!

There has been so many things on my mind lately! Sometimes I feel like I am going to explode. I am at a completely unpredictable point in my life. I know I am in the right place, I know I am doing the right things, and I know I have good things in store for me. The only problem is I don't really know what I am supposed to do while I am here (in Hawaii). I have had to put so much faith into the fact that it felt right to move here in order to stay sane.

There was a fireside last night about change (though I hardly heard any of it because Abby and Peter were being so disruptive :-P). I used to think that I hated change, but the more that I have been contemplating, I have realized that I actually love it. I crave change. It helps me push myself and get out of my comfort zone. It is a small adrenaline rush, a sport in its own fashion. I feel like it is making me into a better person. Even though I have yet to find a job, I have been able to spend these past couple months focusing on making myself more like the person I hope to one day become. The person I need to become.

I am personally very excited for the route my life is taking. It is treacherous and uncertain, but I know in the end it will be well worth the stress, heartache & fear. It will be beautiful.

"Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding"

-Proverbs 3:5